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  • May. 30th, 2008 at 11:52 AM
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Last night was horrible. Every inch of sleep was nightmare.

I've mentioned my recurring dreams of the woman before. There is nothing blatantly sinister about her, but she frightens me so much that Kat always wakes me up because I'm hyperventilating. Sometimes she's an old woman with, as I described before, skin that is precisely the color of mouse feet. Sometimes, like last night, she seems younger, but she's wearing a veil. She never speaks, but behind the veil, I can hear her breath gurgling like water dribbling over a rocky riverbed. Always, I feel paralyzed. I am aware of her presence, but I can't even look down to see her. There is a weight like that old painting of the cauchemar, the nightmare beast sitting on the sleeper's chest. All of the ambient noises in my room, the fan running, the hedgehog going about his nightly shuffling, it's all gone. The room is completely silent, except for her breathing. All the lights are dark, both the glow of the cable box and the alarm clock on my nightstand, and the ambient light coming from the streetlights outside the window.

Last night, even her breathing disappeared, and I was laying in pitch darkness, in utter silence. And then Kat spoke, "what's going on?"

The entire block had lost electricity. I woke from a nightmare of darkness, isolation and oppression into a blackout.

Kat's half-sleep and the clinging shreds of my dream made the entire situation absolutely terrifying. I couldn't fall back asleep until almost three hours later when the power came back on, so I just alternated between laying in darkness and flickering candlelight.

Then I went back to sleep and dreamed of being trapped in a town of walking dead, animated by swarms of locusts nesting in their viscera. When they attacked they opened their maws and let forth a torrent of insects, who would begin to devour and burrow into their prey. I had lost my shoes somewhere, and the crawling bugs burst and popped beneath my feet. Thankfully I don't remember much more of that one.

Can I have some pleasant dreams tonight, please?

Comments

[info]creepypippy wrote:
May. 30th, 2008 11:19 pm (UTC)
It sounds like you need to start practicing Lucid Dreaming. I would have reoccurring terror dreams of ghosts and demons growing up. Once I learned how to Lucid Dream, as well as practice The Tower Of Light, I got to the point that when i felt a dream like that coming I could wake up within my dream and do the Tower of Light and then change the dream into something else. But also having reoccurring dreams indicates an unresolved issue you have in your waking state that your subconscious is trying to tell you that you need to address.

So to get rid of the old bag you need to...

Practice Lucid Dreaming,

Practice the Tower of Light or other protective meditational auras,

figure out what your unresolved issue is and once you face that... those dreams will stop.
[info]scarletboi wrote:
May. 31st, 2008 04:31 am (UTC)
The hag first appeared after the robbery, and has reappeared whenever things get really stressful. The thing about the dreams about her, I don't feel like I'm sleeping. It's more like I wake up and she's there, and I can't move.

A friend suggested a cleansing of the apartment, to get rid of any lingering bad stuff the robbery might have left behind.

Any recommendations on where I should look for info on lucid dreaming and protective meditational stuff?
[info]creepypippy wrote:
May. 31st, 2008 02:13 pm (UTC)
I can help you with a cleansing. Gods know I have had my share to do at my house and friend's houses. Your friend is probably right on that respect, it could just be psychic residue left over from that incident.

My brother will be back down with all our stuff (*does the happy snoopy dance*) so I can have access to my library again. I have some dream books. It will just take me a week or two to get through everything.

In the meantime just do a goggle search on lucid dreaming. Here's one site http://www.ld4all.com/

Also do a search on Tower of Light meditation.
[info]darkfirewolfe wrote:
May. 31st, 2008 03:05 pm (UTC)
I agree with the cleansing idea - and be sure to participate in it, so that you feel that your home is cleansed and safe, in addition to removing the ick. In fact, if there is anything else you feel you can do to feel more safe and in control of your home, that could help as well.

::hugs:: hope the nights are better